Pamela Anderson exposes every little thing – even attempted murder.
in upcoming Netflix documentary‘Pamela, a love story’, premiering Jan. 31, Anderson, 55, reveals she tried to kill her babysitter for molesting her as a toddler.
“It was like three or 4 years of abuse,” the iconic Baywatch beauty from Ladysmith, Canada, says of the trauma she suffered at the hands of her unnamed nanny.
“She at all times told me not to inform my parents. I attempted to guard my brother from it,” added Anderson, who didn’t reply to a request for comment.
“I attempted to kill her – I attempted to stab her in the heart with a candy pen.”
But when her try to spear the villain failed, young Anderson made a grim wish that ghostly preceded the woman’s sudden death.
“I told her I wanted her to die, and she or he died in a automotive accident the next day,” the former Playboy pin-up says in the documentary. “I believed so I killed her with my magical mind and I could not tell anyone.
“I was sure I did it, that I wanted her dead, and she or he died,” continues Anderson. “I’ve lived with all of it my young life.”
Elsewhere in her autobiographical piece, Anderson reads her childhood diaries aloud to disclose that she was raped by a 25-year-old neighbor at the age of 12.
“[Me and a friend] went to a friend’s apartment, went upstairs with a man she had a crush on,” she says. “I began playing backgammon downstairs along with his friend while waiting for her.”
But their friendly game got here to an end on account of a wicked change in the atmosphere.
“We played for some time until he said I looked like I needed a massage,” she recalls. “He was 25 and I was 12. He raped me. I felt it was my fault.”
Feeling like she has nobody to talk over with ask for help after the incident, Anderson kept the attack a secret for years.
In the film, the famous centerfold also appears in Hulu’s Emmy-nominated series “Pam and Tommy,” starring Lily James and Sebastian Stan.
The eight-episode anthology tells the story of the unauthorized distribution of a sex tape she made with her ex-husband and Motley Crüe drummer, 60-year-old Tommy Lee, during their honeymoon in Lake Mead in 1995.
“It really gives me nightmares,” Anderson says of the series.
“I don’t need to look at it, I’m not going to look at it,” he continues. “I’ve never watched the tape, I’m not going to look at it.”
Anderson says the production gave her and Lee, with whom she has adult sons Brandon Thomas and Dylan Jagger Lee, a likelihood to peacefully reconnect.
“I texted Tommy and said, ‘What do you’re thinking that of every little thing? and he said, “Pam, just don’t let it hurt as much as the first time,” he says.
“Why would I need to undergo this again?”